I just finished reading “I Carried An Angel” by Staci A. Luker. I received this Kindle book to review on my iPad Kindle app. Since adding the Kindle App to my iPad, I have been adding every book I can in hopes I will have some free time to read. I have only finished a handful of books that aren’t kids books. “I Carried An Angel” is one of those books that I just couldn’t put down!
Being a parent is one of the greatest blessings we are given in this life. But what happens when you have to tell your child good-bye? How do you continue on as a parent on earth when your child is apart from you in heaven? I Carried an Angel is the story of one mother finding her way as the parent of a baby who was born sleeping.
Miscarriages are difficult. I had one miscarriage after each of my girls. When the first one happened they figured that I was 11 weeks along but the baby measured only 6 weeks. I started spotting at my first appointment and thought that probably wasn’t a good sign. Then the dreaded ultrasound. well, the ultrasound wasn’t dreaded until the tech was super quiet and there was no heartbeat on the screen like there had been for our firstborn. I didn’t want to believe it and waited another 2 weeks for another ultrasound to be sure. I decided to just wait for my body to take care of it. It was tough to wait but it didn’t take too long. I just couldn’t bear the idea of having a D&C. I don’t think that anyone can comment on which way is easier, though, if they have not been through it both ways. My second miscarriage happened only 3 days after I found out I was pregnant. I hadn’t made any appointments yet. That one was in March 2013 and we are trying for another child. My miscarriages will always be a part of me! I now refer to them as my Angel Babies.
After my first miscarriage one of my friends told me that it wasn’t that there was anything wrong with my baby but rather that they were too perfect and God didn’t want them to be corrupted by the world.
I feel that I can relate to Staci’s story in some ways. Chapter 18 really resonated with me because I also struggle with the “how many children do you have?” question. I think that I struggle with that more so because both miscarriages were so early on and in today’s culture not always considered to be a baby. I try to remember to mention my Angel Babies any chance I get. I want to talk about them just so that other moms that have experienced miscarriage(s) know that they are not alone. I think that Staci has done that well with her book. I found so much encouragement from “I Carried An Angel” as I am sure many have. It is so amazing how she was able to write so well in the days and weeks immediately following Barrett’s birth.
I am beginning to be able to share my story especially when I wear my Oragami Owl necklace. My necklace contains a computer(for my blogging and websites), a cake(for my Scrumptious Creations), a January birthstone heart(for my husband), 2 birthstone girls(for my girls), and 2 round birthstones(for my Angel Babies). I love getting to explain what each of the pieces are representing. I also have a plate in there that says “blessed” on it. This one is to remind me how blessed I truly am.
This review turned into more about my miscarriages than the actual book. But, I guess its a good place to start to talk about miscarriage and stillbirth.
I just love that Staci was able to share her experience with us through this book. Please take the time to read her book and get the encouragement you need. Especially, if you have ever experienced a miscarriage or stillbirth.
Please consider sharing your story when you are ready. You never know who you may encourage.
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